i'm not sure if i like to stick to routines, but i almost always do, and it never really matters whether or not i like or don't like to do something anyway.

routines are boring, and expected, and repetitive. but i live in a routine way because i don't like being in a place of unfamiliarity. i take the same route back home from work. i go through each step of getting ready to sleep, in order, or otherwise, i won't be able to sleep. i ride the same buses, i meet the same people, i eat familiar foods. and i think a part of me really hates that.

i'm not used to staying in one place for a very long time, and i used to think that that was a product of my family's incessant need to move every other year. but, now that i think about it, and now that i have the freedom to go wherever i want to, i probably wouldn't be able to live in one place and grow old holding one job in the same apartment for 30 years. but it'll probably happen, because i'd rather stick to routine than let unfamiliarity seep into my day-to-day life.

maybe, i need to start small, like try taking a different route home. i don't know. what am i even trying to say?